So-o many things've been rolling around in my 'ol brain! I often think "I need to write that thought down or I'll forget it". But lo and behold I do not write it down and I do not remember the brilliance once the daily grind takes over, yet again. Can anyone say Digital Voice Recorder? I will change the world even through my forgetfulness! I WILL!
Anyhoo.....
I will try and let you into my world; my process. Don't be afraid.....it's only frightening for the first few minutes!
Once I stared college I realised that I, by nature, do not ask questions. I accept. The grass is green. Okay. This store doesn't carry the item I need. Okay. Yet, once our professor questioned the reasons for history......I found that I stated questioning; and I was uncomfortable with that. At this point I'm not even sure why I was uncomfortable. Maybe I thought that my questions were too big. Or not big enough. Maybe I was uncomfortable because I thought my question will seem dumb or inadequate somehow. My questions may also lead to more questions......some without answers. We can't have loose ends now can we?
But are any of those reasons valid or even good? Sheesh. Yet another question!
Questions require patience, knowledge and wisdom; both to answer and to ask.
Questions shape us. They create new paths in our brain; and heart.
I've also noticed that I'm noticing new things =D . Things that I probably wouldn't have noticed before.
Going to a community college has opened my eyes. Not just to history either. I know it may seem naive, but when I smile I expect the recipient to return that smile. Why, I'm not sure. Maybe I'm cocky and think my smile is more than it is. I'm sure that there are tons of reasons for the unturned grins. Hurt. Business. Preoccupation. Fear. Exhaustion. Whatever the reason, I noticed. My smiles are very rarely returned on campus. It seems almost comical that in a place that professes it's openness that the people seem to be so closed. I don't want a new bff, I just want to brighten your day. I'm not looking for a date (I already have a HOT boyfriend!); I just want you to know that you are loved.
You may be thinking......and you want to accomplish that with a *ahem* smile? Yeah. Yes, I do.
I think Jesus smiled alot. I'm just aiming to be like him. He also didn't enforce the rules. He didn't condemn. He hugged. He talked. He ate. He gave. He smiled. He laughed. I'm sure he heard lots of people curse. He heard dirty jokes. He spent time with the drunks and prostitutes. AND he heard and loved them. As.They.Were. It doesn't seem that He got his robe in a bunch either (heh-heh).
So, that leads me to my next question. Why do we (primarily Christians, in my opinion) put restraints on people? You have to fit into 'this' mold if you love God. Especially people who may know no difference? Is that really what Christ did while on earth? No. He didn't. He LOVED. He listened. Yeah, he got pretty ticked sometimes. But mostly at the religious people. The ones who were really farther from the heart of God than any others.
So, it is my mission to smile and smile BIG. Not so that people notice my pearly's but so that they realise there is another One for them, not against. And of course......to change the world. *grin* After all; isn't that what we're here for? DANG. Another question. ;-)
"Finally, all of you, live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble." 1 Peter 3:8
"No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us." 1 John 4:12
"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl......In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven." Matthew 5:14+16
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
The promised pictures
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Get ready for it..............
Once posted, this will be my three hundred thirteenth post. Wow. No no, hold the applause please. I now will deliver my appreciation speech. I want to thank God for he was the one who REALLY invented the Internet (unlike some politicians claim). I also want to thank my family. Without my family......there would be nothing amusing to blab....er....blog about. =D
Ahem, as I reel myself back to reality and the reason for this post.....
Things are in full swing now. Kids (swinging) from the rafters alongside the brain that my skull used to house. Heh. Kidding. No crime scene tape here. But we have nicely gotten back into the routine, though, and I am thankful. This years transition to fall wasn't nearly as pailful for me as last years; smooth as silk. We've even had more on our plates this year too. That is something to be eternally grateful for. Thank you God. The kids are glad that I'm better adjusted. I was freak-o-Mamma at the beginning of last year. *sigh* Poor Babies.
Ben and I are enjoying college and we're getting gggggggreat grades! YAY! It does start to make one feel like there is much to do with little left over. I remind myself often that whenever we say 'yes' to one activity we are also saying 'no' to another. We're working on making sure we are doing what God's will is for us. Whew. That's really the hardest part.
As I was checking the last of my garden tonight I realized something. There is something endearing to me about fall. With that thought came instant regret for it. I've cheated on summer yet again. Don't misunderstand; I.LOVE.SUMMER. but there is a coziness about fall. That is, if I'm not shivering out'ta my skin. I'm sure that most of this endearment comes from the fact that I'm content. God is good. That is all I need. Whatever comes I am secure because He is wonderful. -Even when the rain falls, even when the flood starts risin'. Even when the storm comes I am washed by the water.-Needtobreathe "Washed by the Water"
Gosh. That got deep. Hmmmm. I must end on a light note......*breath catching in throat* Ben and I are......going to.....the NEEDTOBREATHE concert! OMGosh! Seriously; my heart just stopped for a second. Serious. If you havn't been able to tell, I'm SUPER excited! YYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSS! That's just a taste of how thrilled I am. Pretty lame huh? Ahhhh, but you can't see my face! Heh-heh. It's elated.
I will post photo's of our adventures tomorrow.
Once posted, this will be my three hundred thirteenth post. Wow. No no, hold the applause please. I now will deliver my appreciation speech. I want to thank God for he was the one who REALLY invented the Internet (unlike some politicians claim). I also want to thank my family. Without my family......there would be nothing amusing to blab....er....blog about. =D
Ahem, as I reel myself back to reality and the reason for this post.....
Things are in full swing now. Kids (swinging) from the rafters alongside the brain that my skull used to house. Heh. Kidding. No crime scene tape here. But we have nicely gotten back into the routine, though, and I am thankful. This years transition to fall wasn't nearly as pailful for me as last years; smooth as silk. We've even had more on our plates this year too. That is something to be eternally grateful for. Thank you God. The kids are glad that I'm better adjusted. I was freak-o-Mamma at the beginning of last year. *sigh* Poor Babies.
Ben and I are enjoying college and we're getting gggggggreat grades! YAY! It does start to make one feel like there is much to do with little left over. I remind myself often that whenever we say 'yes' to one activity we are also saying 'no' to another. We're working on making sure we are doing what God's will is for us. Whew. That's really the hardest part.
As I was checking the last of my garden tonight I realized something. There is something endearing to me about fall. With that thought came instant regret for it. I've cheated on summer yet again. Don't misunderstand; I.LOVE.SUMMER. but there is a coziness about fall. That is, if I'm not shivering out'ta my skin. I'm sure that most of this endearment comes from the fact that I'm content. God is good. That is all I need. Whatever comes I am secure because He is wonderful. -Even when the rain falls, even when the flood starts risin'. Even when the storm comes I am washed by the water.-Needtobreathe "Washed by the Water"
Gosh. That got deep. Hmmmm. I must end on a light note......*breath catching in throat* Ben and I are......going to.....the NEEDTOBREATHE concert! OMGosh! Seriously; my heart just stopped for a second. Serious. If you havn't been able to tell, I'm SUPER excited! YYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSS! That's just a taste of how thrilled I am. Pretty lame huh? Ahhhh, but you can't see my face! Heh-heh. It's elated.
I will post photo's of our adventures tomorrow.
Friday, October 2, 2009
The funny things
I've been trying to really listen to the kids lately. Here are a few funny/cutesy things I've been told or overheard:
Es-While we were all singing Home on the Range she stopped and said "Oh. I thought it was 'where the deer and the cantelope played!'"
Joey-While waiting for our movie, Up, to start (it was darker inside the theater), he looked back at Ben and I with a twinkle in his eye and said "This is so romantic!" He was smiling his HUGE smile.
Es-We've been listening to Anne of Green Gables on c-d while driving to school and back. The kids LOVE it and so do I. On the way home she asked "I was wondering. Could I fix your hair tomorrow before you leave (to a Women's retreat)?" She later told me that she wanted to do a bun. Why? Because I have available hair and 'cause of Anne! It'd be too hard for her to do her own.
Zach-While waiting for him to exit the bathroom Ben said "What are you doing Dude?" With disappointment in his voice and down cast eyes he responded "I was killing the fruit flies." I walked over and saw the hilarity. Zachy had been using our spray air freshener to 'kill' the flies.....on the mirror no less. As we were admonishing him never, ever to do that again he was walking up the stairs and we were snickering.
Sam-While at a play ground with a very tall structure he said "I'm getting rid of my fear of heights." He then proceeded to climb, only part way and well below the Twins, up the structure. He ended up touching one of the Twins' shoes.
Sam-"Have you (Dad) ever read Calvin and Hoobs?"
Es-While we were all singing Home on the Range she stopped and said "Oh. I thought it was 'where the deer and the cantelope played!'"
Joey-While waiting for our movie, Up, to start (it was darker inside the theater), he looked back at Ben and I with a twinkle in his eye and said "This is so romantic!" He was smiling his HUGE smile.
Es-We've been listening to Anne of Green Gables on c-d while driving to school and back. The kids LOVE it and so do I. On the way home she asked "I was wondering. Could I fix your hair tomorrow before you leave (to a Women's retreat)?" She later told me that she wanted to do a bun. Why? Because I have available hair and 'cause of Anne! It'd be too hard for her to do her own.
Zach-While waiting for him to exit the bathroom Ben said "What are you doing Dude?" With disappointment in his voice and down cast eyes he responded "I was killing the fruit flies." I walked over and saw the hilarity. Zachy had been using our spray air freshener to 'kill' the flies.....on the mirror no less. As we were admonishing him never, ever to do that again he was walking up the stairs and we were snickering.
Sam-While at a play ground with a very tall structure he said "I'm getting rid of my fear of heights." He then proceeded to climb, only part way and well below the Twins, up the structure. He ended up touching one of the Twins' shoes.
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Ain't life grand? Why, yes. Yes it is.
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