So-o many things've been rolling around in my 'ol brain! I often think "I need to write that thought down or I'll forget it". But lo and behold I do not write it down and I do not remember the brilliance once the daily grind takes over, yet again. Can anyone say Digital Voice Recorder? I will change the world even through my forgetfulness! I WILL!
Anyhoo.....
I will try and let you into my world; my process. Don't be afraid.....it's only frightening for the first few minutes!
Once I stared college I realised that I, by nature, do not ask questions. I accept. The grass is green. Okay. This store doesn't carry the item I need. Okay. Yet, once our professor questioned the reasons for history......I found that I stated questioning; and I was uncomfortable with that. At this point I'm not even sure why I was uncomfortable. Maybe I thought that my questions were too big. Or not big enough. Maybe I was uncomfortable because I thought my question will seem dumb or inadequate somehow. My questions may also lead to more questions......some without answers. We can't have loose ends now can we?
But are any of those reasons valid or even good? Sheesh. Yet another question!
Questions require patience, knowledge and wisdom; both to answer and to ask.
Questions shape us. They create new paths in our brain; and heart.
I've also noticed that I'm noticing new things =D . Things that I probably wouldn't have noticed before.
Going to a community college has opened my eyes. Not just to history either. I know it may seem naive, but when I smile I expect the recipient to return that smile. Why, I'm not sure. Maybe I'm cocky and think my smile is more than it is. I'm sure that there are tons of reasons for the unturned grins. Hurt. Business. Preoccupation. Fear. Exhaustion. Whatever the reason, I noticed. My smiles are very rarely returned on campus. It seems almost comical that in a place that professes it's openness that the people seem to be so closed. I don't want a new bff, I just want to brighten your day. I'm not looking for a date (I already have a HOT boyfriend!); I just want you to know that you are loved.
You may be thinking......and you want to accomplish that with a *ahem* smile? Yeah. Yes, I do.
I think Jesus smiled alot. I'm just aiming to be like him. He also didn't enforce the rules. He didn't condemn. He hugged. He talked. He ate. He gave. He smiled. He laughed. I'm sure he heard lots of people curse. He heard dirty jokes. He spent time with the drunks and prostitutes. AND he heard and loved them. As.They.Were. It doesn't seem that He got his robe in a bunch either (heh-heh).
So, that leads me to my next question. Why do we (primarily Christians, in my opinion) put restraints on people? You have to fit into 'this' mold if you love God. Especially people who may know no difference? Is that really what Christ did while on earth? No. He didn't. He LOVED. He listened. Yeah, he got pretty ticked sometimes. But mostly at the religious people. The ones who were really farther from the heart of God than any others.
So, it is my mission to smile and smile BIG. Not so that people notice my pearly's but so that they realise there is another One for them, not against. And of course......to change the world. *grin* After all; isn't that what we're here for? DANG. Another question. ;-)
"Finally, all of you, live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble." 1 Peter 3:8
"No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us." 1 John 4:12
"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl......In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven." Matthew 5:14+16
6 comments:
Your smile brightens my day.......and I would smile back :) See, I just did!
HA! Thanks Heath.
Wow Babe... "Deep Thoughts by Katy Lewis". Somehow, that post made me love you even more. You are incredible and I appreciate you and all that you do. I like how you said "Questions require patience, knowledge and wisdom; both to answer and to ask." I also think that to gain patience, knowledge, and wisdom you have to ask questions. So keep asking questions Babe! You are so patient, smart, and wise and yet you continue to find ways to grow. You are a true inspiration!
One of the things I love about working at Corban College is that the students are so stinkin' smiley. Seriously. I've never had a smile unreturned...and I guess I've never unreturned a smile myself. (because why wouldn't someone smile at a smiley person? that's weird)
Keep smiling at the non-smilers. You'll break them down eventually :)
You go, girl! Smile until it hurts! Make 'em wonder why you're so darn happy all the time. :-)
Oh, have you ever watched the new show Community on Thursday nights? It's about a funny group of random people at a community college and it's SO FUNNY! Now that you're going to a CC, you'd probably think it's even more funny.
Many people just have no reason to smile, and they will remember yours! It's the face of God shining thru your face that they will see! : )
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